Having a really bad moment here.
This isn't fair.
I shouldn't have to do this.
I don't want to have to do this.
I was fine. Been holding it all together. Haven't let myself freak out. Been surprisingly optimistic about things.
I don't think I can try this a third time. It's too hard.
I'm so sick of this consuming my life. How to do you get past something that is there every second of everyday? Something that you are reminded about ALL the time? Every holiday, every time I leave the house, the grocery store, restaurants, tv, movies. Everything reminds that I can't get pregnant like everyone else and that I may never have a child. It's such a hard thing to carry around day after day. I know to some people this may seem like it's no big deal. It is a big deal. You have no idea how painful this is until your in it. I don't know how or what to feel. It's very lonely.
