So, today basically sucked.
I'm having a hard time understanding why this is happening to me. There are so many people out there who should not even be in the same room as a child, yet they can have as many as they want. They don't even care.
I deserve to be a mom. I'd be a good mom.
It makes no sense.
What's the point?
How can I feel like this for the rest of my life? What's the point of life when it's filled with so much sadness? Really. And I'm not talking about killing myself. Just wondering how I can wake up everyday and keep going. For what? Nothing. There really isn't anything to live for. So sad. But it's the truth. There's no purpose.
I never thought I would be this person. Never thought I'd be in this place. Not quite sure who I am anymore.
