I had to take a little break from things. You would think it would be better to get things out... Haven't been ready to take that step.
I've been doing surprising well. I have bad moments every now and then. I refuse to go back to where I was after our first IVF. I also refuse to refer to this second IVF as a failed. It may not have resulted in a baby, but that didn't stop me from loving it and appreciating every single moment I got to be pg. I never understood this until now.
Ladies at work are telling me how they admire how strong I am. It's not by choice and it's definitely taken me a LONG time to get to this point. Had this happened for the first IVF, I would have been crushed. I am crushed, just able to handle it better. I've been through a lot and have lived through it and I'll get through this.
It was hard to go to the grocery store the first couple times. I would think how the last two times I had been pg. I was so proud. I know no one knew, but I felt so happy and wonderful.
Had my WTF appt. today. Dr. said everything looked perfect and is surprised the pg didn't stick. He said that I have two beautiful great looking frozen blasts. He thinks the FET will be it. I hope so.
