FET is on!

Went in for my baseline yesterday and things went well. I have a few small cysts but nothing to worry about. My lining was already at a 9, so that was good as well. We are looking to transfer Aug. 13. I'm actually very excited and hopeful about it. :)

I'm such a liar!

I really need to update this thing. It's hard because it reminds me of what happened. :(

Anyway, when I went in for my baseline, they found a cyst on my right ovary. Had to stop the Estrace and started Provera.

The Provera, was to trick my body into having another AF, thus hopefully getting rid of the cyst. Never again will I take that crap. Oh my god. It's the worst hormonal drug in the universe. First, I started spotting after a couple days. The spotting got more red as time went on. On day 8 I thought I had AF, called the nurse and she said I could stop taking it and begin Estrace again. It ended up turning to spotting so I just took the last two pills. Those last two pills almost killed me. I got so depressed from this stuff. SO DEPRESSED! I had to remind myself that it was just the pills. I was miserable. It was bad. After a day of not taking it, I felt a lot better. I don't think I could take that longer than 10 days.

I spotted the next couple days and then stopped. I told the nurse what was going on with the spotting and that I wasn't sure if it was a really light AF or not. She called back and said I could begin the Estrace again. Started that on Tuesday, the 21st. So far, so good.

FET Cycle Has Officially Begun!

Here I am, after a little break. I realize I should have been blogging, but I couldn't bring myself to go there. Or here. I needed to escape from all of it for a while. Not that I didn't think about what happened and what was to come.... Just going on with life like a normal person was something that I really needed to do.

I can't believe I was pregnant. It's almost like a dream. I feel like I have to force myself to remember that from time to time. Still feel blessed to have experienced as much as I did. It was the happiest I've ever been in my life. I felt so at peace.

As expected, AF came today. I think I've said this before but, it's amazing how well I've gotten to know my body through all of this. Good thing I had called my RE office on tuesday to find out what I should do when I got AF. I was worried that I'd get it over the holiday weekend and wouldn't be able to get a hold of them.

As of now, I'm taking 1 pill twice a day. I go in Monday for a baseline u/s. We'll talk about dates after they get the results from that.

I'm excited and at peace with whatever happens. I'm optimistic. But different than when we started the second fresh cycle. I've been trying to figure out a way to explain the difference but can't think of anything that fits.

Can't wait to read this in the morning. Blogging while wacked out on Darvocet may not be a good idea.