7dp5dt

So, of course I tested again today. Lines. I didn't take a pictuer of it yet, will probably do that tomorrow.
I'm so exhausted!
Let's see...
My day started off great. Ate breakfast, felt slight nausea. Got to work and started sweating my ass off! I was so damn hot. Sweating. Sweating! I was also very very thirsty.
Started getting really tired around lunch time. Almost fell asleep waiting for my c0-worker to relieve me for my break. Came home and layed on the bed, almost fell asleep again. This is the first day I've really felt like this. Tired, body tired. Loving it though, no complaints.

Believing more and more that this is real.

For the sake of comparison

Here's a picture of all the hpts lined up. I just don't understand how if the Ovidrel is decreasing, why are the lines getting so dark???

6dp5dt

Today sucked major ass!
First of all, the top test is from this morning. It's a darker than the one from yesterday morning, but about the same as the one last night, maybe a tad darker. The second one is from this evening when I got home from work. It's obviously darker.
Why did today suck? Because I kept thinking about what the nurse said. It's so hard to be in limbo like that. I really didn't feel like I wasn't pg, but I didn't feel like I was. I mean, I thought I was, I could have sworn I was. And, I couldn't tell if I was just in denial over the whole thing or if I was mad because I was pg and she was acting like it was impossible.
So, I went to buy more hpts after work and tested again. Darkest line yet. Today the Ovidrel should be out of my system. I'm still wondering about what the nurse said, but I'm leaning more towards maybe I really am pg! It's like a weight lifted off my shoulder. At least until tomorrow morning when I test again and pray that the line isn't lighter. :)

5dp5dt

Still two lines!
Had a rough time eating a banana this morning. I love bananas but I was not loving this one. I had to force myself to eat it most of it, then gave the rest to one of my dogs. Ate an english muffin w/pb&j. Tasted delicious, but boy did I feel like crap afterwards. Still felt bad when I got to work, even turned down a Panera bagel!
I was little nervous about going to work. I was afraid I'd do something to mess things up. I was trying to be really careful but felt I was doing more harm than good. Then I started thinking about how silly I was being. The rest of the work day went fine.
Called the clinic to tell them I was testing positive. The nurse who called me back said that it was impossible to get a bfp this early. She told me that I was testing positive because of the Ovidrel I took on 9/4. I told her it was gone and she argued with me. She said it's way to early and there's no way it's a bfp and that the Ovidrel stays in your system for 10 days. I'll have to wait until 9/24 for my beta! WTF?
So, I decided to not pee for the rest of the afternoon and take another test when I got home. It's the one above labled 5pm. As you can see, it's darker. I find it odd that the lines are getting darker as the Ovidrel is decreasing. So, of course I start freaking out. Haven't said anything to E because he'll freak out too. There is no reason to tell him if I don't know what is going on right?

My reason for thinking the Ovidrel is gone....
For IVF2, we did 2 5000 unites of Ovidrel. I tested the day of ET on an IC and there was no line. This was six days later with 10000 units. I tested every day and never had a line until 9dp3dt and that was so faint I had to hold it up to the window. I went and bought a FRER and the line was a bit darker.

Now, for FET, I took 5000 units Ovidrel. Half the dose I took for IVF2. I tested 8 days after taking it and got that faint line on the FRER. Now, how is it that half the dose is still in my system 10 days later when the higher dose was out of my system after 6 days. I'm sure if I tested with a FRER, it probably would have shown up, but it would have been VERY faint. And the stupid line would not get darker!!
I'm so mad that this stupid nurse has taken away my excitement and made me even more paranoid about things.
The only thing I can do is test tomorrow morning and pray it's not getting lighter.

4dp5dt

Woke up at 3:30 having to pee! Of course, I took the opportunity to POAS. Stood there and watched the color move up, nothing. No line. I sat on the side of the tub, heart racing. No line. I was so sad. :( Couldn't believe it. Sat there for a minute, then decided to go back to bed. Looked at the test and saw another faint line! It was darker than yesterday, but still light. This one also showed up within the 3 minutes. So, of course there is no way I'm falling back to sleep anytime soon. I kept comparing the two tests and double checking to make sure the lines were still there.

Decided to attempt sleep, not happening. The cramps started up and kept me from getting comfy. Ended up watching tv for a while. Started thinking about how it was possible to have a bfp when I thought I was still having implantation cramps. I remembered the day after transfer, I had two red spots on the tp. I just figured it was caused from irritation from the transfer. Now I'm wondering if it was actually implantation spotting?

Also, I read some more about these cramps and indeed, they are an early pregnancy sign. I guess it's my muscles and what not getting ready to carry the baby.

Kept getting them off and on and every time I tried to fall asleep. After eating because I was starving to death, then peeing another 4 times, I finally fell asleep a little after 7am. Woke up a little after 9 am and looked at the pee sticks again. lol Still two lines!

3dp5dt

STILL having this insane cramps! I don't even know how to explain them. They are in my lower back and the back of my legs/hips feel like they do when I have the flu. Let the google searches begin. Pretty much 98% of all the stuff I read said that these cramps led to a bfp. Could it be? Could I really be pregnant? Ha ha. That was like the hpt commercial. :)

So, I go get my haircut then go to the grocery store. The whole time I feel like crap. REALLY hot, really irritable with the 8,000 people in the grocery store. The whole time I'm thinking, "I have to be pg." There was no other way to explain the way I felt.

Get home and decide to POAS. I figured if it was negative, at least I could blame it on it not being FMU. I've been drinking tons of water and have been peeing like it's my job. So, I really wasn't expecting to see a line. E didn't know what I was doing so I couldn't hang out in there for a long time waiting. Ran down to the kitchen to grab my food, went back upstairs to grab the pee stick and what do I see? The faintest faintest line of all lines. WTF? Really? There's really a line? I couldn't believe it. It showed up within the three minutes and is still there. You can barely see it, but it's purple. So for now, I'm pg.
Haven't said anything to E yet. Want to wait until I get another bfp.
Still getting pretty bad cramps. Thirsty. Mouth watering. Weird taste in mouth. Bloated. Tired. Not really nauseous, but feel like I could be nauseous.

We tried to watch a movie that started at 8:30, could barely make it through w/o falling asleep. Couldn't wait until it was over! Went to bed at 10:30!

2dp5dt

Went to work today. Wishing I had stayed home another day. :(
Tried to take it as easy as I could. Had bad cramping in my back and abdomen off and on through out the day. It was even in the back of my legs.

Did some googling and learned that it cold be implantation cramps. I guess they can last a couple days. Hopefully that's what's going on in there.

Really tired!